grannys lesson

It was my grandmas bday yesterday..lout that I am, i forgot, despite sms reminders from my mom.. shes well beyond 80, i am not even sure how many beyond..She wobbles along on two fake hips and a walking stick, and is one of the most determined spirited people i know..

I called , shameful, tail between my legs and wished her..I apologized for not being able to call yesterday. she had never really been big on birthdays..this time, .she gamely replied, "I am so old now, every day is like a birthday for me"..

and that got me thinking...

hedging bets with god

I always used to bet against India whenever India played an important match. The logic was kinda like "if any0ne must lose, please let it be me.." if India did lose, the pain was assuaged by monetary benefits..if India won..well..yay..

problem is, i have been applying this principle to the rest of my life, and investing time, money and mental effort in outcomes I dont really want, hoping only to relieve some of the pain if the eventuality does pan out..

don't know if it is a really smart strategy in life..end up not even waiting for the outcome, and taking the safe route all the time...
safe job, safe house, safe relationship, safe friends, safe hobbies..
shit..safety depresses me..

a message to you rudy

stop your messing around, ah-ah-ah.
beetter think of your future, ah-ah-ah.
rudy,
a message to you rudy,
stop your fooling around ah-ah-ah
time is running right out - ah-ah-ah.
better think of your future
before you get into problems in town..
rudy.

- one of the most inspiring songs i have heard in a long time..

and trumpets absolutely rock..i used to play the bugle. ..wistful sigh....where can i find a bugle here ?